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Day 109 | Deuteronomy, Luke, Psalms

Day 109 | Deuteronomy, Luke, Psalms

18 Dec 2018
Deuteronomy 30:11 - 31:29
Luke 19:11-44
Psalms 48:1-8

Old Testament

New Testament


Isabel's picture
The minas story is one of the most painful bits of the bible for me. (I was thinking about this the other day and I sat down to write on here about that insecurity that I've had - I should have gone for it, but it was so painful that I started to cry and I felt God say to go and be with some real-life friends / people instead for a bit.) The story's so painful for me because I was given a really really good start in life - a great church, and in particular Christian parents who really went for it and did all they could to bring me up knowing God and bring me up well, but although I've tried to go for it, follow and step out, I've not yet seen the fruit I've wanted and sometimes I just hope I've not wasted it all. There was one particular decision I made 10 years ago which I didn't realise was a risk, and it led to me becoming very ill (I'm still recovering now.) Although yes I do need to admit that God's used it for good and He's been doing really good things in me through the illness that I don't know how else He would have done. Although today what I really liked about the bible was that straight after that parable comes the bit where Jesus rides on a donkey and cries for the people. He's kind.
CharlotteE's picture
Oh Isabel. You sound like you need a big hug. (I hope your 'real life' friends have given you one!) Bless you. I really hear your frustration and pain in this post. As a new Christian, I'm certainly not in the best / most experienced position to comment in the most helpful or wise way. But, I think you got it at the end - 'He's kind'. He is indeed. And He loves you. Maybe the fruit you were expecting and hoping for, is not the plan He has for you. But certainly He has a plan, and it is good, and I am sure that your faithfulness and dedication to trying to follow Him has not gone unnoticed. As for it being a 'waste'. You love Him and He has saved you - that is not a waste. I'm not sure if this helps at all - a hug might help more. I just wanted to let you know you've been heard. God bless you xx
Isabel's picture
Thanks Charlotte :-) Don't look down on yourself because you're a newish Christian - you understand well. I need to persevere with the fruit. It was really helpful and nice to have your reply. God was very kind to me - almost straight after I posted that, I read that IHOP had posted 1 Cor 15v58 which answered me completely: Therefore, my dear brothers and sisters, stand firm. Let nothing move you. Always give yourselves fully to the work of the Lord, because you know that your labor in the Lord is not in vain. Absolutely perfect! (Sorry this post isn't very coherent - I've been feeling ill today). I'm so grateful though for these videos - on every single one Mike, Ali and Andy are amazing at helping us understand what Jesus means, apply it and helping point us to Him.